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Update before a short hiatus~

Just an update before I leave Friendster for a short while...

1. I'm not going to Taiwan anymore. Yeah, I know...

2. Not going to get my Master's at UCLA either... Yes, yes, I know...

3. And no, I don't feel bad about it at all.

4. Do I have a plan? Yes, I do. Things have never been clearer for me.

5. What now?

6. A job... somewhere =)

7. Will be gone for a while. Will contact all I need to contact when I get back. Thanks a bunch.

**I miss you guys! I specially miss... my family back home and wo de friends Baron, Buddy, Con, Kikoy, Cheche, Jheng~ =)

Love you all!

I'm Moving!

Moving to Taiwan this July...

So I'll be much closer to my homeland -- Pinas!

Yooooooooooooshi!

A $200, 2-hour flight away.

Yay.

Anyhoo, I think I'll be able to go home this time around.

Oh yeah, I'll be an English teacher there.

Fun, eh?

So if you guys are planning to go to Taiwan for a visit, you know who to call.

Taiwan contact info coming soon~

Miss you all!

See you soon, God permitting =)

OH EHM GEE~

UCLA actually added more funding for my Master's work. OMG! OMG!

Thank you California!

かりふぉるにゃ人です〜

うれしい！

So happy~ Tra La La La~

What's left for tonight?

It's 10:02 PM PST. What's left to do, ya? Sleep? No.

1. I need to finish my paper in my English Lit class.
2. Read Shakespeare for my you-know-what class.
3. Clean room
4. Pick up me mom [me driving me dad's car. Vrooom!]
5. Continue cleaning room.
6. Email Dr. Ash for being such a pain and make her submit my major requirement form already.
7. Mark the books that I'll be selling on eBay or somewhere.
8. Vacuum~

Oyasumi =)

The New Ex~

Not dating. Just friends. Sure.

He's cool though. Really.

Fan of hip-hop. I don't do hip-hop.

And smokes too! Saite.

Can be overlooked. But long distance?

Hell no.

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Ai~yo.

Oh, please!

Went to the DMV today and got, yet another, driving permit. I was due to have my DL for years now but I kept in postponing it... I know how to drive... I just don't know how to park... oh, and I panic... Anyhoo, it got back to me today because when I got my vision test, I FAILED. I couldn't believe it... I knew my eyes were bad (my ears are worse, my nose are the worst) but I didn't know it was THAT bad. So yeah...

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I was looking at a very dear friend's Friendster page the other day and I really missed him. If you think that men and women can't be "just" friends, you're mistaken. This man is really, very dear to me. We were friends during high school and he was the nicest person ever. Of all the good friends that I actually had by my side, I was lucky enough to actually notice his existence and not let it pass by. So yeah, I was looking at his friendster and his profile pic was that of him and his girlfriend. I look at the girl and I actually felt happy. You know how moms think that no one is good enough for their kids? Well, I'm like that... but with this girl, I was just happy. =) I looked at her profile & pics and stuff (stalking, no?) and I think that she is quite a character. She looks cool and nice. I think my friend and her fit quite nicely. He talked to me about her a couple of times before and I'm glad that it all worked out for the two of them. I can't wait to meet her when I get home. I know that we'll get along... I just know it =) And no, I don't have that evil grin on my face.

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The point of the story is that I've been jealous of my friends whenever I see their pictures all happy and having fun... but for some reason, I wasn't for this friend. Maybe because I really cherish this person or maybe because I've really moved on and matured a bit.

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I got my first copywriting assignment! Yay! (Celebrate with me?) I was working for free though... some kind of an "X-deal." I work for free on his website content but I get to include the website in my portfolio. Neat, eh?

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I'm done bragging. Jaa!

Old fears, New prospects...

Happy New Year Everyone! =)

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Earlier today, my mom asked me to get my sister's hair clips and when I couldn't find them, I was struck by panic--as always. My mom got upset too--as always. That's when I realized that old fears never go away. I'M A BAD LOOKER. I really am. When I was younger, everyone used to ask me to look for things for them, especially my mom. Since I rarely find anything fast--if at all, it was either people get upset and in my mom's case, upset, irritated, and disappointed... Since then, whenever I'm asked to look for something, I feel some sort of panic. I'm 22 but whenever my mom yells at me even for something as trivial as not finding hair clips, I still want to cry like a seven year old girl...

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What do you do when you look in the mirror and you hate the person staring back at you?

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What if your plans for yourself is different from plans of the people you love? Do you choose your own happiness or of your loved ones?

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I am packing up and going far away. Away from America and farther away from the Philippines. Maybe go to a place where no one knows me just so I can be myself... where no one expects me to be something. Just me. Where I don't have to prove I'm good, that I can support my family, that I'm talented (which I'm not), that I'm smart... I wish that God would give me enough money to buy my parents a house and to send all my three siblings to college so that I can runaway in seclusion from the mostly financial pressures of this life.

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Freelance copywriting is my business now, so if want some copy done, email me. Hahaha... No, really. I need the money to buy my freedom. (http://www.garciawriting.com)

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What do you do when it's your heart and your conscience that they hold hostage? Your body is free but your situation is much worse than physical bondage? Life sucks. Or so I think... what would a little girl from Sudan or Kenya say to me?

Joyeux Noel...

I suck at French. But I want to give it a try again just so I can sound sexy for once in my life. When I was young, I was always mistaken for a boy by strangers on the phone. Stupid peole. At present, have mastered modulating my voice so I would sound like a female human being.
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Christmas has come and gone... THREE WORDS: Patron, Cousins, and Markers. I was beet red, tipsy, and acting silly... but it was all in good fun. Everyone's "growing up" and times like these are fleeting by the day. We used to have these fun parties EVERY celebration. You name it: birthdays, holidays, weekends... but now, it has become a once-a year thing. So it was really great to see everyone together again and drawing penises on each other's faces with some markers... good times... I'll post up pictures when my aunt sends copies to me.

I got a couple of good gifts like a pair of pretty plaid sneakers, a vintage fishing game (loved this one!), a very nice sweater, and a pair of PJs. My cousin also told me that he'll give me a copy of Leopard as a gift. Happy =) Almost everyone on my family gave me a gift -- just like the younger ones. I don't know if I should feel happy that I'm still so well-loved or if I should feel happy yet disturbed because the older ones didn't get as much gifts and I thought that I was part of the "older" crowd. I guess everyone still sees me as one of the kids... I'm 22. I'm GRATEFUL, bitches.
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Anyone want to go to Europe with me? I'm going on a two month trip starting May 2008. Tell me if you want to go. Really. You pay for your own ass of course.
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I want to go to Oxford University (England) for my Master's in Theology. I'm currently pouring over systematic theology books and I'm loving every minute of it. Talk about nerdy stuff, but yes... Koine, Latin, German are my linguistic cups of tea at the moment. Patristics, anyone? Anyhoo, I really want to go to Oxford in 2009. My love affair with Japan is still up there but Richard Massey sorta shook my faith for Japan. I love that man.
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OBSESSION LIST: CHRISTMAS EDITION

1. RICHARD MASSEY -- and the rest of the Last One Standing men. But Richard is my special one. Yes, we can be the beautiful Oxford couple.

2. SHISEIDO -- I'm a Shiseido whore.

3. ZOEY 101 -- my tween side is kicking in when I see this show. I especially like Sean Flynn (a.k.a. Chase) in this show. Darn you Jamie Lynn for ruining it for me!

4. ISWAK 2 -- Mr. & Mrs. Jiang are back!

5. DBSK -- Xiah Junsu oppa! We-wait.... I'm older... wapak!

6. FR. LAUX -- teachnically, it's his books that I adore but hey, he wrote them. By the way, he's dead.

7. (FLUFF)FRIENDS -- Facebook has got a good hold on me on this one. I love Yogi, my Froggu!

8. GETTING BUZZED -- Having a good drink after a long time of alcohol abstinence feels rather good. I like the light buzz, not getting drunk and gross.

9. MUSHISHI -- It's been a while but I'm still in love with this. Can anyone tell me where I can see the movie version with subs? Merci.

10. BALLET -- sounds fun, eh?

Majo No Jouken... 「魔女の条件」

Majo No Jouken... is the Japanese phrase for Witches' Demand." Translated to Forbidden Love................

I'm currently "infatuated" with a certain guy I'm not supposed to like. I'm not sure if he's married or engaged... I don't see a ring, you know... I don't know if he has a girlfriend either. Heck, I don't know squat about the guy but still. It's called affinity. Ahehe.

I don't know. At this point, I can't rape him yet (Ahaha..awkward) but one more semester and we're roling, baby! =) That's a big hint why he can't be touched yet.

I like older men. Yes, I do. =)

蝶scandalous, ね?

My little sister singing A.Ra.Shi.

Goodness... we really are sisters :) Kawaii, ne?

Bato.Bato.Bato.Batong-bato na ko.

I'm kind of in a slump for the past week... you know how the devils of indecisiveness and unhealthy desire for fame are attacking me without mercy... yep, it's that bad... so, as a remedy, I do some sporadic half-hearted prayers (such a bad girl, ne?) and I get a dose of some Kiyoshi for temporary relief...

I love this guy... and I love ZUNDOKO! Hahaha! And yes, I have mastered the whole Zundoko right hand shaking routine... zun.zun.zun.doko!

Wow... I'm exposing how bored I am... Man, I want to move to Japan already. Then I can roam the streets of Akibahara on weekdays and Harajuku on weekends. Bwahahaha... THEN I can meet Arashi, Oguri Shun, and this guy Kiyoshi. Haha.

I seriously need professional help...

Ideal Man...

My ideal man would be...

       ...the simple sort. He would be a man of simple means and simple dreams. One who fears and loves the Creator most. Then I come second. We would live in a simple white house. A house painted in white, inside and out. He would have this happy laugh and a warm hug. Someone who would tolerate my bad side but will not hesitate to tell me off either. He'll try to do a portrait of me whether he can draw or not. I will sing to him and he won't complain despite my horrible singing voice...

       ...we'll get married in the small church where we will live. Very few people will attend. A honeymoon around the world is not needed at all. We would spend the time arranging our new home, sending thank you notes, and picking out baby names!...

We will look out for one another. Never raise our voices. Kiss everyday. Always go to bed in peace. Have matching coffee cups.

A simple life.

Now if only such a man exists...

Crying =( + An Extra Long Post

Before I drive you to tears with my completely self-centered (Me! Me!) and pointless post, here's a little treat from me... a video my my much-loved Shingo Mama singing Oha!

PLEASE CLICK HERE AS FRIENDSTER IS BEING AN ASS AND WON'T ALLOW ME TO EMBED ANY MORE YOUTUBE VIDEOS. I IMPLORE YOU TO WATCH SHINGO MAMA. YOU'LL LOVE HER.. ERM, HIM. I PROMISE.

I am so moving to Japan!!!
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Now, back to business...

Yes, I'm crying. But not because I was hurt by someone... I just finished watching Beautiful Life with Kimutaku in it. Aaahh... just like Taiyou No Uta and One Litre of Tears (though I haven't seen Tears), this drama is a tearjerker. I used to avoid dramas like this but besides the fact that they are good (and sorta brings me back to reality), I realized that I could really use the occasional cry fest as I haven't been crying enough... at least enough to keep my tear ducts healthy. Bwahahaha... That was some good BS, ne? P.S. for the first part: I also finished Remote with Domoto Koichi in it. Koichi is mine. Hands off, bitches.
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Anyhoo, I'm thinking of taking a year off college. I know, I know. In reality I'm supposed to be a graduate by now -- in this society's stupid standards. Hell!!! It may sound irresponsible and mighty selfish but I am concerned with my own happiness right now. Even if it means initially disappointing the people around me. I mean, if I'm not happy with own life, how can I take care of the people around me? Plus, as I have said before, I'd rather exploit the foolishness labeled to young people (21 is relatively young, ne?) than be a perfect child right now and suffer from a midlife crisis later on. Yes, yes, I'm looking for a good beating...
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My stupid Mexican Neighbors had a party today. Since about 80% of my neighborhood is made up of Latinos, I am forever surrounded by people partying with their annoying music blaring like hell -- with no regard for their neighbors. We live in the same apartment building made up of the same flimsy materials. Don't they realize by now that we can hear a whisper from each other's walls?! Okay, a whisper is an exaggeration but you get what I mean... I'm not being racist and not doing the whole stereotyping thing either. It's the cold truth -- the ones that they didn't show in Marimar or in Agujetas de Color de Rosas. Remember them? Yes, those were the dramas that made me say: "When I go to America, the first boyfriend I'll make is a Latino." Barf.
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Oh yeah... lately I've been listening to Nirvana, Alice In Chains -- you know, the Alternative sort. Maybe because I've been reading Beck and they're oozing cool. I've seen a sample of the anime but Ryusuke's super low voice was turn off and Tanaka's singing voice was not as jaw-dropping as they portray in the manga. I like the manga better. I like my imagination better.
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Anyway, my dad told me that we'll go practice driving when he gets home early tomorrow morning. Did I tell you that story already when he forced me to practice driving just when I found Hana Yori Dango II's final episode -- and I haven't driven for almost a year??? It was scary and I was irritated and I wanted to cry. Anyway, he did that because he caught me wide awake at 5 in the morning. So my game plan? I sleep "earlier" now. Ahahaha!
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I'll be going to sleep in an hour or two... for now, I'll be doing whatever... maybe watch some hentai... bwahahahaha.... kidding, kidding. Whatever rocks your boat.
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Quick and Easy Obsession List

1. Koichi Domoto -- I have a feeling I will marry this man.
2. 1000 Words by Jade (Sweetbox) -- Yes. I am doing some FF 11 trackback...
3. My screenplay -- Wildflowers is still my working title.
4. My new-old cellphone -- I hate it but since my other one is not working, well, you know...
5. Planting -- I planted some Zinnias three summers back and they were beautiful. I'm doing it again!
6. Classical Music / Orchestras -- Cool beans! They soothe the soul... and my ears...
7. Vita-Soy -- Ahahahaha...
8. Facebook -- Nothing new but I haven't mentioned it before...

This post is very long but I don't regret it... Now I'm off to post something on my other blog. Uh-uh, it's the one you don't know about. Bwahahaha!!!

**I don't need to get a life. You do.**

Jyaa matta!!!

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My heart and my mind belongs to me... So don't even bother trying to talk me out of something or forcing your beliefs to my already volatile self...

And it's about time that you realize that I am different from you.

Bye.

Fighting Over Me?

Yes. Aiba Masaki, Shun Oguri, and Takizawa Hideaki are fighting over me. All because I am too darn cute and such a perfect specimen for a girlfriend. And yes, I'm hallucinating. Just took some LSD. Psychedelic man! Instant hippie!

Actually, I am just snooze challenged and so I'm off to catch as much zzzs as I can. I have classes tomorrow ya'know. I'll be dreaming of ONE of those guys. Just one -- orgies are not my thing.

Oyasumi!

P.S. Joe Cheng rocks my boat too. Add to that Jiro Wang and Danson Tang. Yippee!!!